Why love

Why Love?

Why can’t we,

Just fall in love again?

Can’t we just see

That we’re each other’s end

Begin with soft spoken word

Of I love you, miss you, kiss you

Don’t we need this certainty?

Maybe not

Maybe we need to plunge into chaos

Not regular chaos either

The type where others are the boss

Fear is ether

Face facts we can’t fall in love

Because we refuse to

Release enough control to

Ourselves to go deep

Afraid to fail and wheel sleep

Because trusting the other person at the wheel

Is to easy

I guess I answered my own question

So these moments are the lesson

I’ve been ducking from learning

Still a victim fueled slave to yearning

That I deserve to be wanted

Lusted

Chased after

Salivated for

The way others are and have

The way I’ve done for you

Love

We can’t fall for you

We’re too afraid of heightsv

The last petal

The last petal

The last petal

Falls from the flower

Made of metal

Conducting the power

Beauty in its weakness

As it floats and flutters to the ground

Its brightness leaving as gravity takes hold

Does it make a sound?

Because the movement is bold

The final petal of strength

The rose that grew in concrete

Don’t be too late

For if this petal reaches the street

A return to its mother it’ll never meet

Demise if a single petal, the last petal

Detox

Detox

Shake, shiver

Shake, shiver

Chatter

I can’t believe I’m alone

How alone

I am

On this path

Me and four walls

A bed and water

I don’t have the strength to laugh

To accept calls

To make calls because I lack a loose quarter

I wanted to call

But words escape me

Like fleeting feelings

Bumping against a wall

Splattered for all to see

I see the colors

Beautiful like nothing I’ve ever seen

Description? Other

I know you have no idea what that means

Detoxing alone in prison

The prison of the minds eye

I listen

Clearly hearing spirits cry

To souls bound

To the unbound

Earth

Its making me crazy

Clearly

I need time to make things less blurry

In this detox

The Iron throne

The Iron Throne

I’ve missed you

Forged from the swords

Of kings men

I Left your power

In this locked room

For a source I knew wouldn’t last

Penmanship on my diary so simple

Against this iron throne

Here sits the king of 7 kingdoms

With the power of Gods

Upon a throne forged with the blood & tears

Of knights of the kings guard

This war, this rebuilding process

Will be one for the ages

For as I sit upon this throne

Blood will spill with a blink of an eye

There lies a pile of bone

Belonging to the betrayers who had to die

My calm cool nature allowed me to forget

My power

My strength

My wisdom

Is aligned

With power you’ll never see

Never realize

Until its too late

For your king has returned

To his rightful place

Upon this iron throne

Oh how I’ve missed

The power you’ve given me

Allowed me to unleash on the world

At my discretion

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I see your colors

They are among the prettiest colors of the rainbow

Fly across my field of vision again

Take my breath away from your grace

Subdue me

With your true friendship

I honor you

Give thanks to you for you

For your pleasant spirit

I honor you for your wisdom

Your love and your heart

These moments I cherish

With everything I am

I want to thank you

For sharing every part of you

With every part of me

Know that having you as my partner

Has been the great moment I’ll know

I love you from now until the end of time

And beyond

Cherish my world

Cherish my world

You’re Cautious with me

Knowing im in my dark place

Where into no eyes can see

A race?

I’m not running

Admittedly I’m funning

More than usual

My darkness is setting my fire off

Around me, rings and rings of flames

Playing their part in my games

Darkness has the ability to be my control

The place where I think

Exist in peace

Because silence feels good.

So you’re cautious as you walk

Into my universe

Looking for everything, finding nothing

Waiting for me to tell you something

I can’t speak

For anger stumps my words

Heat warms my emotion

I want to reach

Through the herds

So you’ll understand my notion

That this darkness is my place

My space

To look at the light of the world

Curse its brightness

Shake my fist at authority

Then finally confront and control my anger

Control my rage

And Just be

Laundry

Laundry

The whole cycle sucks

I feel cleansed

Defeated

Overwhelmed

Dissed

Disowned

Lied to

Made a fool of

Laughed at

Used

Burned out

Turned out

Ripped

Shredded

Humiliated

Dumped

Disheveled

Ostracized

Villainized

Victimized

And left to die

I’m own pitiful existence

With the thinnest of lights

Enough to keep me awake

And alert enough

To do choices

For those who need a house boy

Beauty Never Fades

Beauty never fades

When the ugliness of the world

Traps you

inside, unheard

As your screams barely get through

Your beauty never fades

I know you’re tired of facing endless days & nights

Where awake and sleep are ongoing fights

Where memories of past are like new experiences

The years are caching up, so are the expenses

You try, fight, shake, too weak to struggle

Even seeing another day break is a hustle

Your beauty never fades

No matter the strands of grey

The teeth lost

The less  you have to say

The amount medicine cost

How many tries

To focus with your eyes

The power you use to reach out to be heard

Take a moment to listen, hear my word

Blessings ran down in waves

Beauty never fades

No limited to skin deep

It resides on the inside

Bursting at the seams

Heavens gates painted in your dreams

As your heart moves to a flutter

Your spirit connects the bond

That’s no matter, time, place or age.

Beauty never fades

Thief of the night

Thief of the night

Would you really call me that?

You gave in willingly

Willing me

To show you where to bend

At the waist, so I can taste

What’s at the base, on my face

Drip, drop, now my tongue slide

Enjoying the spoils on the inside

Leaning you down enjoying the ride

Bounce, twist, rotate, pause

As you prepare to get off

One crashing wave after another

Allows me to access your sauce

Your own blend of broth

Taking me asunder

Grabbing hold of your thighs as you shudder

Ripping you in half

I laugh

Slurping down another

With my smile so bright

I moan into your womb, another for the thief of the night