Find the Words

Find the Words

I search my mind to find

A few words I can’t define

I think it’s a feeling

That is why it felt like an emotional killing

My heart is beating faster than before

I just want more

I want to love again

Why can’t I have more than a friend?

In some ways I am forced to mold

Find clay, whose story been told

Make them into a priceless jewel never to be sold

At an auction to the highest bidder

Is it suppose to make me a winner

What happened to me being to my self

Taking care of my health

Doing what I have to do

Now I ask for answers, you give me more lessons

Then they lead to more questions

You want me to fine the happiness I deserve

Can’t you speed it up to meet my learning curve?

I want passion

Close to forever lasting

And you gave me the kit to do it alone

I better not pick up the phone

And call you for help you said

Cause all my emotions you’ll render dead

So I take what I am given

Say two Hail Mary’s cause I’m living

Then make a decision

As to what I am not sure

But everything needs to be pure

Go in with both eyes open wide

Beware of outsides disguise

Cause it could be a test you don’t realize.